I’m not much, but I’m all I have and I’m learning to be okay with that. This was a spur of the moment thing, born out of utter boredom. Had I thought about it more I would most likely chicken out. It is hard to lay bare your soul especially when sometimes the thoughts I have scare me, ideas and thoughts I can never share.
Socially inept, but an excellent actress; I get through any social occasion looking at ease. My hands don’t shake: but my confidence does . Often complimented on how at ease I make others feel, and how fun I make the party. Yet all the while I am peeking out from behind a hidden pant leg, clinging for security that never quite comes. I wish I had a cloak of invisibility because I love people, I just never feel like they love me back.
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